June 30, 2006

All Star in My Car?


Tonight, I got to sing a solo! I DID!
I was in a 4th of July special, and for the grand finale, we sang "Proud to be an American" (of course).

At the end, I sang this part:

"Well there's pride in every American Heart, and it's time we stand and saaaaaaaaAA-A-AyaaaaaAAAAyyyYYY (just like Celine Dion would)."

I didn't sing that last part that's in parenthesis (that's why I put it in parenthesis).
But wait, that wasn't all. After the choir sang the chorus a couple more times, I got to sing this part:

"I know I'm freeEEE!"................
(Choir, choir, choir)
"I'll proudly staAand up, next to yoOooh."...........
(Choir)
"I love this laaaAaand.".............
(Choir-and-fade)
"Proud to be in the USAaaaaAaaAa."

Pre-filmed fireworks went off behind us and everything!

I'm excited about this solo, and I'll tell you why.
Because, though I've sung a few ditty's in my life, I've never gotten to sing a solo where I felt like I was singing in my car. You know that different persona you take on when you're singing in your car? Oh, YOU know. You blast Whitney's "I Wanna Dance" at volume 47, and somewhere in the middle when your voice is going hoarse, you glance in your rearview mirror, hoping that you're moving your mouth like she does and that your upper lip is starting to sweat? (I know you're nodding your head in understanding, Joel. I remind you, then, don't let go of your dreams. Go out there and grab 'em by the horns, like I did tonight.)

Singing in my car; that's what I was doing throughout tonight's solo. I WAS Whitney. I WAS Barbara. I WAS Celine.
I was better. I was Pauline.

June 28, 2006

My Momma's Birthday!


Today is my mom's birthday! I wanted to share her with the world in some small way. This is the best I can do to share her with you, as I'm not her. It's a copy of her birthday letter:

(This intro quote is true, but cheesy. It's a Yahoo musical card. Choke it down and get to the letter part...which will also be cheesy, but it will be original. :)

"Your birthday is a reminder that you were born into this world with your own glorious story to tell. You bring pride and grace to our family, and you tell your story so well."

Happy Birthday, momma!
Today, I want to thank you for who you are.
If I were to write a character description of you in your book, I'd say something like: Sandy is...You are brave; bright in thoughts and in appearance; and you are deeply kind...though sometimes true kindness goes unnoticed or appreciated; scorned and abused. You are giving of your life. Not a gift receiver, but a great gift giver. You're loving when it gets hardest and you have to say the hardest things, and you always smell like fruity happiness. You've got the courage to speak up to the big guys and stick up for the small guys in a way that brings light and forces a decision for everyone around. You make a difference in the world. You're real, funny, and sure. You're beautiful - shiny gray hair and gigantic smile, full of true joy! You're fresh and relevant, and always seeking for more beauty and light to share!

If someone were going to be in a play, and was going to play the part of you...it would be their honor to give it a try. But, I'm afraid no matter who it was, their interpretation of you wouldn't be good enough. Being you can only be pulled off by you.

Thank you for your smile, mom. Thank you for teaching me so many, many things...
I feel safe when I'm with you. I feel happy when I'm with you. I feel stronger when I'm with you. I feel carefree when I'm with you.

I love you, momma. Your story is my heart's favorite. I can't wait to live along side of you as you write the next pages of your story!
Happy Birthday!
Pauline

June 26, 2006

Beautiful Morning


I woke up this morning to the sound of my dad's voice saying, "I didn't want to get you up, Paul, but it's time for you to get ready."
My dreams happily danced away to the percussion of the sprinklers jingling over the fields outside my childhood window. The country's summer perfume, made of fruit nectar, flowers and life, wafted past my pillow, carrying me away to memories of my girlhood. The emerald fields glittered outside like a lake in the morning sun; the gentle water drops adding to the sparkling sea. My soul was quiet.

As I drank in the calm of the morning, I felt an unexpected emotion. Just as I did as a girl, I felt peace and joy to the full. I felt an assurance that life was safe and lovely, and that my God-given dreams would somehow come to pass.
It was stunning...I can't seem to put words to it now. It was mysterious and enviable; full of wonder and hope.

It was a beautiful morning; one I'd like to live again and again.

June 17, 2006

S's Last Letter Home

This is Shawna's final email from Honduras. She's flying home today!
I wanted to share it with you because it's beautiful, and it impacted me.
If ya don't have quite the time to read it all, check out the light-colored parts for a little fast-food reading (though, my bias is tapping me on the shoulder, making sure I encourage you to read it all).




This will be my last e-mail to you all from Honduras. I can hardly
believe it. I thought that this day would never come and now I look
at the reality that it came all too quickly. As I think and reflect
on this year of my life I am mystified at the growth and changes that
have taken place. I have lived a year in a world that has taught me a
lot not only about their culture and customs but a great deal about
ours
I have gotten up every morning to the fog hanging low amongst the
trees, roosters crowing and dogs fighting.
Taught four grades of
students with the same problems and insecurities as the students I
taught in Spokane. It is a culture where yo
u are either rich or you
are poor; both are very evident as you walk down the street.
The
women come down from the mountain carrying heavy loads of various
things on their heads. Children run around without shoes and are very
excited to see a gringa. When walking down the street it is not
uncommon that you have to have to step around or over a drunk man in
the street. A place that dressing in layers is the only way to go,
because at any minute the sky could get dark and it could rain
buckets. Here roofs leek and walls get wet; cows and horses walk
aimlessly down the street.
Thinking to my life at home and all that I have and don't really need,
all that I don't do that I should, and all the time that is wasted.
Relationships are important, and communication really has nothing to
do with what you say.
When I get home I hope that the Lord uses these things that I have
learned, felt, and experienced to further His kingdom.
Thank you for reading my thoughts, all of this time. I know that you
all have had a full year as well. Thank you for being a part of mine.
If you would like to get together I would love to spend time with any,
all of you.
I will be home on Sunday June 18th; give me a call.
Loving you,
Shawna


"I will lead my blind men by paths that they don't know. I will turn
the darkness into light and rough road into smooth before them. These
are my promises I will keep them without fail." Isaiah 42:16

June 16, 2006

Check This Out!

Hello reader!

Patrick just sent me the following note to my mailbox...50 times. It seemed important to him that I got the message. I could be wrong. I'm just throwin' it out there. You can throw it right back.
Anyway, after I opened and read the same message from Patrick a few times, I thought I'd give 'er a shot and share it with you so YOU could give it a shot, too, if you so choose! The 7:30 showing of the movie with a friend is optional. AND, he might not love you quite as much, either, but that's for him to decide, not me.
Okay, here's Patrick's note:

I just sent my future self a message. It will be deliverd Jan. 1, 2008. I thought you might want to send one to yourself. I'm going to the 7:30 showing of this movie tonight. Hope you get to go with a friend.

I love you, Patrick

Have fun writing your letter! Be blessed in 2008!

June 13, 2006

Great Hair Day!

I'd just like to take this time to say - I had a GREAT hair day today!

Yes, the sky outside may have been black since the time I woke up this morning.
And it may have rained so hard that freeway drivers chose to drive 40 in a 70 the entire already hour-long drive to my 10 o'clock appointment. The one that cancelled once I got there? Ya, that's the one.
My other two appointments for the day may have also cancelled and had to reschedule as well, and I may have burned half of the might-as-well-be-gold gasoline in my tank to get there.
My dad may have text me three times, warning me to get my car under cover for the oncoming hail storm predicted to produce icy stones large enough to kill someone, and to tell me that there's a level three sex offender on the loose in town.
And I may have been rejected by the five other visits I made in attempt to resuscitate a lifeless day.

But let me tell you what. My hair day? Lifeless it was not. It was FANTASTIC! It was FULL of body! It was bouncy and flirty! It was shiny, carefree, and fabulous all day long! My locks endured the rain, championed the storm, laughed in the face of continual rejection, and shrugged off the news of a local S.O. with a glamorous, slow-mo Pantene Pro-V shake.
I don't know what it was about today, guys, but I have to tell ya, I've never had as good of a hair day as I had today. It's too bad no one got to see it but me.

June 7, 2006

Soul Searching

I took a quiz on Patrick's My Space to find out what kind of soul I've got. Here's what I found out about me. I'm dying to know about you! What kind of soul do you have?


You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.
Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.
Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.
No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.
Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.
A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.
You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

June 4, 2006

"Onduras" (S is a Star)



I went to visit one of my lifelong friends, Shawna ('S'), down in Honduras. She has been working as a missionary there, teaching english to 2nd, 4th and 5th grade students. She's been gone for almost 10 months now! GO S! YOU ARE ROCKIN' IT, G!

I've always told S she's a star. She has that sparkle; that something that lights up the room when she walks into it. It was awesome to meet her teammates, fellow teachers and students - people she's loved and who have loved her throughout her time serving there. The glitter that came to their eyes when she walked into a room made it clear to me that they see the same shininess in her that we've always seen. They love her! If I went for nothing more, it was enough to sit back and see that S was living out what she was meant to be: a star, living with the confidence that we could expect a heavenly beauty to shine with.

While I was visiting, S and I had the chance to do lots of things. We seemed to find a good balance between her showing me around and teaching me about her new land, and me getting to remind her of the friendly comforts and jokes of home. We stayed up late talking, laughing, listening to our favorite CDs, and watching a movie we'd already seen (Sorry again that I didn't bring Napoleon Dynomite, S! You KNOW I would have been all over that, had I received the e-mail. I suck. I know you already knew that ;), but just the same, I am sorry). We also had the chance to read a book together. S, keep working on Lindsey to let us keep that one. :)

As for me getting to walk in S's world, I got to see some things I'd never seen, as well as some things that made me smile and wonder if we are really that different from one another, regardless of the places we were raised. It was a unifying experience to be able to laugh, play and learn with Shawna's students and Honduran friends, having a shared understanding and sense of humor regarding so much of life.

Visiting Shawna's school, it was easy to see, at just a glance, one of our cultural similarities: the recess social scene.
In this picture, you see a group of 4th grade girls (and the boy in the back) practicing their routine for the big talent show. Does every group of 4th grade girls do this?! My class, the 4th grade class before and after me did! Did yours?
As the girl's practice was going on, boys played football in the far field. They had an intense game going on (as you can see, behind Mr. Freddie, the goalie had just made a nice save). Again I ask, does this not sound like the social terrain of every playground in the universe (well, at least yours :)?
On the playground sidelines sat several sets of friends having "tea" and talking, while others read books to one another, played house and jumped on tires. That is one part of their recess social scene that made for an imperfect parallel to my own. In my elementary school recess social scene, what I'll call the "fringe" group (which I was most often a part of) didn't jump on tires - we played tetherball.

As for things that were different? The stand-out cultural difference was the driving. I thought I was gonna die.
When Dr. Troy picked me up from the airport, one of the first things he said in his broken english accent was, "En Honduraz, we have two loss: First? Der are no loss. Two? Follow de loss."
When it comes to driving, he explained, they just don't the police to enforce rules of the road.
He smirked and said, "One of deh rules peple follow es: 'de one on ze right has de right (to pass).'" As I sat, squished in the back seat of his crushable pop-can-of-a truck, a chill of fear ran through me. My three-hour drive to La Esparanza promised to be an experience to remember - if not for the day I lost my life, for the longest solo prayer marathon I'd ever participated in.
Along the uphill corkscrew-of-a-trail, I saw drivers passing six cars at a time up its sharp curves. I saw one bus pass another into the face of visibly oncoming vehicles! The bus being passed calmly steered to the shoulder to allow him room so he AND the oncoming vehicles could both squeeze past.
At one point, Dr. Troy was trailing an uncomfortable tailgater's distance behind a police car. I thought Dr. Troy would notice how close we were following and adjust...the sooner the better, my gut feeling urged.
Dr. Troy did finally notice our rudely-close distance to the P.O. However, he didn't respond by backing off in the way my imagination and my back-seat driver's foot had planned it. Rather, Dr. Troy revved the engine and passed that inconsiderate law-abiding cop. We showed him.
Once we got to La Esparanza, there wasn't so much dangerous passing. Instead, there was honking. Pedestrians walk on the streets without right-of-way, making for some impatient drivers. Every morning outside Shawna's bedroom window, we woke up to the peaceful sounds of roosters crowing, and school busses honking the length of entire city streets:
HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONK!
I tried to take it seriously...but really?! Is it necessary to hold down a horn that long? And hadn't the pedestrians who'd had it blaring behind them for 17 blocks had enough to WANT to get out of the way, just to relieve their ears from the pain?
I laughed about this each morning as I burrowed my head into my pillow.
I found it impossible to believe when S told me her school bus had hit a dog the week before. How? He had to be 100% deaf.

I observed, felt and experienced so many things with Shawna, it's hard to narrow it down here! We rode on an oxcart and a horse, saw a HUGE waterfall, ate green bananas, bought berries from a peddler, and ate coconut cookies on top of a mountain overlooking the city.
We lounged together on the patio of a beautiful cafe, reading a book about what Christ thinks of his church as Kenny Rogers sang, "You Decorated My Life" in the background.
I met the people who have made S's time there bearable and beautiful.
I laid in S's kitchen hammock to watch her make beans, rice, and something that she didn't even know what to call.
I heard Shawna speaking spanish around town with grace and ease! "Adios," she said to passers-by, instead of saying hello. "It's what you say when you want to acknowledge the other person, but you can't stop to talk," she explained to me. DUDE! That's MY GIRL! YOU ROCK, S! YOU SERIOUSLY STINKIN' ROCK!
I watched S living the Honduran life that's sure to change her life forever.
And, most importantly, I got to see S being loved and shining bright, like the star she was created to be.